So that's pretty fucking depressing...

Ha. Fat.

I appreciate fat chicks. They give the best head. (Not really. Read the rest of this, for reals, bros.)

Except the second girl I ever prematurely ejaculated on. Kinda but not really. She was a little bigger, but god, she was so beautiful. Couldn't give dome for shit, though, surprisingly. Considerin' how many people she'd been with, you'd think she'd be a pro. Whatever though, man.

She was pretty open about her past, and I was cool with it. I told her "That doesn't matter to me." Because it didn't. She was that good to me. Only reason we split up is because one of my 'best friends' at the time 100% convinced me she was fuckin' around. Which she clearly wasn't, but I was young and stupid. There's a reason my circle is small nowadays. I've got three good friends, and one is family lol. Anyways, I was so mean to her when we broke up, and I regret it more than juuuuust about anything.

I'm no longer friends with that one asshole. Yo, fuck that guy. We'd probably be together still if it wasn't for him.

She stayed in contact with my mom, since momma is such a wonderful person, and she told her "I thought for sure we were gonna make it." concernin' myself, and that hurt, man, when I herad that. Not sayin' I was tryin' to wife anybody at 18, but holy shit, I miss that girl more than anything.

I don't mean to say that I don't love my wife, because I do. Despite her being a colossal bitch, I still love her, and am forever grateful for blessing me with a son. But if I could go back... I totally would.

I'm married, with a kid. She's a single mom, now...

If there was a way I could be with her, while avoiding an epic custody battle over my child, I'd make it work. I'd find a way.

Talk about fuckin' disappointed life thread stuff lol. Why the FUCK am I posting this online? I can;t imagine the shit I'd be going through if the wife saw this lol. Blame it on the alcohol.

Whatever. I still miss you, B. And I'm sorry for everything.

Negativity and surrounding yourself with losers doesn't accomplish jack shit either, other than keeping yourself down that is.

Yeah well, good luck with that. As long as you don't drag other people down with your misery and pathetic self-pity, you won't hear me object.

Sounds like you're objecting pretty loudly already for whatever reasons. Nothing is wrong with schadenfreude, everybody does it though some won't admit to it.

Sounds like you're objecting pretty loudly already for whatever reasons. Nothing is wrong with schadenfreude, everybody does it though some won't admit to it.

It's human nature and only the self-righteous would pretend they are above the practice. It would only be wrong if one went out and made cause for it.

I'm disappointed of life because its so utterly mundane.
For me there is no greater goal, no fight to win, nothing new to explore, no interesting challenges, nothing that feels important at all. No matter what I do and spend my time with, I feel like I'm simply waiting for my time to run out.