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darthlopez Banned for Spam I have made 1,033 posts Right now I'm Offline I joined September 2015 I've received 644 likes My gender is Male	Venting thread / what's bothering you? Apr 19, 2020 20:12:29 GMT -6 Ness and Dreamleaf like this Post by darthlopez on Apr 19, 2020 20:12:29 GMT -6 Apr 19, 2020 19:50:06 GMT -6 lpprince said: How are you holding up? Me? I'm doing ok. There was no one to cover my shift today or really yesterday because my pharmacy is short people, so I told them in advanced I wouldn't be in on monday. I haven't really had time to just sit and recalibrate yet. Things are mostly fine. I'm fairly good at handling death but the quiet at night time is rather disconcordant, and it seems like I'm imagining her little noises periodically, also still reflexively telling her I'll be back in the morning and also saying hello when I come into my room. But beyond that ok. The vets already cremated her which was disturbingly quick, but I have her paw prints and her cedar box and ashes I guess so that's kinda nifty I guess. :/ I think tomorrow will be hard cause I'm going to have to dump the food and water that's in there I havent yet, and pick up all the meds and towels and her play things on the floor of my room its' not alot really but i've just kinda been leaving everything as it was but us as comforting as it is distressing I guess. But i am mostly ok I think. If work doesn't like me calling off tomorrow they can literally suck a dick, there's plenty of pharmacies currently looking for more staff and with a national certification, my license renewal quite nearly complete and covid about I'm not worried about job security. Kinda pissed at the tech who was supposed to come into the store to close the front tonight though. She called off. they asked me to stay and I said hard nope. I came in literally from dropping my little buddies body off at the vets yesterday after taking a long lunch to take her there. And came in today no problems because we don't have the coverage and this chick calls off 1 fucking day after taking an optional 14 day isolation with only 30 minutes notice and being back 1 week if that to have a 3 day weekend. I kinda hate her honestly. As a person she seems nice as a coworker she is the shittiest tech I've ever had the displeasure of working alongside and the most fickle and unreliable team member i've ever had for anything. Yet she gets off scott free and I'm sure when I call tomorrow at 9am to be like "Hey so just to confirm that letter I left for Manager 1 and Manager 2 I'm not here today" and I'm 100% positive i'm going to get the "It's ok we understand but are you sure you can't make it?" prompt and I'm like 100% yeah no, call that bitch "carole baskins" and get her in there since she skipped the fuck out on sunday.
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lpprince Banned for Spam I have made 2,134 posts Right now I'm Offline I joined August 2015 I've received 1,279 likes My gender is Male	Venting thread / what's bothering you? Apr 19, 2020 20:31:30 GMT -6 darthlopez likes this Post by lpprince on Apr 19, 2020 20:31:30 GMT -6 When my royal python of 18 years passed away a few years ago, I had to take a couple of days off work to grieve. They understood. I hope your people do as well. And I may have to call off work tomorrow as well, but I won't know till tomorrow morning. Today was weird in that I had a pain that was definitely heart related. I controlled my heart rate, slowing it down, trying to figure out if there was something I could do to solve the problem. Then I decided to get active, rapidly increasing my heart rate, and the pain went away almost entirely. Now I'm back to my resting heart rate, its not hurting, but there's a smaaaaaaall remnant of what I felt before. Like 2%. Real small. Still. I'm not sure I wanna be fucking around my work place tomorrow if I feel this way in the morning. Which is annoying because I had some work hurdles spring up on me last week that'll follow me into this week and I've currently got no help with my job(I'm the only one doing what I do and my supervisor who should be helping me has been out sick for over a month). Edit- Nah fuck it, I called off already. Gonna play it safe. See how I'm feeling tomorrow and form a plan of action if nothing changes.
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darthlopez Banned for Spam I have made 1,033 posts Right now I'm Offline I joined September 2015 I've received 644 likes My gender is Male	Venting thread / what's bothering you? Apr 20, 2020 6:38:28 GMT -6 via mobile Post by darthlopez on Apr 20, 2020 6:38:28 GMT -6 Apr 19, 2020 20:31:30 GMT -6 lpprince said: When my royal python of 18 years passed away a few years ago, I had to take a couple of days off work to grieve. They understood. I hope your people do as well. And I may have to call off work tomorrow as well, but I won't know till tomorrow morning. Today was weird in that I had a pain that was definitely heart related. I controlled my heart rate, slowing it down, trying to figure out if there was something I could do to solve the problem. Then I decided to get active, rapidly increasing my heart rate, and the pain went away almost entirely. Now I'm back to my resting heart rate, its not hurting, but there's a smaaaaaaall remnant of what I felt before. Like 2%. Real small. Still. I'm not sure I wanna be fucking around my work place tomorrow if I feel this way in the morning. Which is annoying because I had some work hurdles spring up on me last week that'll follow me into this week and I've currently got no help with my job(I'm the only one doing what I do and my supervisor who should be helping me has been out sick for over a month). Edit- Nah fuck it, I called off already. Gonna play it safe. See how I'm feeling tomorrow and form a plan of action if nothing changes. Doctors?
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Ness Rah's Piggy Duchess of Liamsburgh 'A poem is never finished, it just stops moving' I have made 3,765 posts Right now I'm Offline I joined August 2015 I've received 3,938 likes My gender is Female BSN Posts 3,322	Venting thread / what's bothering you? Apr 20, 2020 6:59:40 GMT -6 That Goat, darthlopez, and 1 more like this Post by Ness on Apr 20, 2020 6:59:40 GMT -6 My younger sister came out a short while ago after getting into a relationship. She's been working through friends and family of import one by one and my older sister found out (something of an order of priority going on here, she's last to know and told second hand, for reasons that will soon become apparent). I wasn't there, but I'm told she cried and started shrieking about how 'no one in this family can be normal!' At what point do you just cut ties with a family member
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lpprince Banned for Spam I have made 2,134 posts Right now I'm Offline I joined August 2015 I've received 1,279 likes My gender is Male	Venting thread / what's bothering you? Apr 20, 2020 8:57:50 GMT -6 Ness and darthlopez like this Post by lpprince on Apr 20, 2020 8:57:50 GMT -6 Apr 20, 2020 6:59:40 GMT -6 Ness said: At what point do you just cut ties with a family member When you feel you need to. I cut a family member out of my life a few years back and I've felt infinitely better ever since. Literally no regrets. You do what you have to.
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Dreamleaf Forum Regular I have made 196 posts Right now I'm Offline I joined September 2018 I've received 301 likes	Venting thread / what's bothering you? Apr 20, 2020 9:45:43 GMT -6 Ness and darthlopez like this Post by Dreamleaf on Apr 20, 2020 9:45:43 GMT -6 People discovering their identity seems pretty normal to me. If anything she should be glad neither you or your other sister is a Touhou player. We're the true crazy ones. @lopez You deserve a day off. Sometimes you need that time just to get yourself into a mindset where you can handle that shit. I do hope they don't give you a hard time though.
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lpprince Banned for Spam I have made 2,134 posts Right now I'm Offline I joined August 2015 I've received 1,279 likes My gender is Male	Venting thread / what's bothering you? Apr 20, 2020 13:27:01 GMT -6 Reznore likes this Post by lpprince on Apr 20, 2020 13:27:01 GMT -6 Apr 20, 2020 6:38:28 GMT -6 darthlopez said: Apr 19, 2020 20:31:30 GMT -6 lpprince said: When my royal python of 18 years passed away a few years ago, I had to take a couple of days off work to grieve. They understood. I hope your people do as well. And I may have to call off work tomorrow as well, but I won't know till tomorrow morning. Today was weird in that I had a pain that was definitely heart related. I controlled my heart rate, slowing it down, trying to figure out if there was something I could do to solve the problem. Then I decided to get active, rapidly increasing my heart rate, and the pain went away almost entirely. Now I'm back to my resting heart rate, its not hurting, but there's a smaaaaaaall remnant of what I felt before. Like 2%. Real small. Still. I'm not sure I wanna be fucking around my work place tomorrow if I feel this way in the morning. Which is annoying because I had some work hurdles spring up on me last week that'll follow me into this week and I've currently got no help with my job(I'm the only one doing what I do and my supervisor who should be helping me has been out sick for over a month). Edit- Nah fuck it, I called off already. Gonna play it safe. See how I'm feeling tomorrow and form a plan of action if nothing changes. Doctors? You know those people that avoid going to the doctor as much as possible even if they have the insurance and capability of doing so? Hi. Thats me. I always try to solve the problem before having to go out and put it in the hands of a medical professional. Honestly, its a bit dumb, and it could wind up getting me killed some day. I'll have to change that. Eventually.
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darthlopez Banned for Spam I have made 1,033 posts Right now I'm Offline I joined September 2015 I've received 644 likes My gender is Male	Venting thread / what's bothering you? Apr 20, 2020 13:38:12 GMT -6 Post by darthlopez on Apr 20, 2020 13:38:12 GMT -6 Apr 20, 2020 13:27:01 GMT -6 lpprince said: Apr 20, 2020 6:38:28 GMT -6 darthlopez said: Doctors? You know those people that avoid going to the doctor as much as possible even if they have the insurance and capability of doing so? Hi. Thats me. I always try to solve the problem before having to go out and put it in the hands of a medical professional. Honestly, its a bit dumb, and it could wind up getting me killed some day. I'll have to change that. Eventually. That's fair, I'm the same and I work with that stuff so trust me I follow but still once its a heart feelign and not just a little under the weather that's definitely an inspect it if it keeps happening. But I hope you feel better. Edit: Also just mathed out this mornings michigan numbers, and we are at 7.7%, mortality rate, this is not showing signs of stoping in terms of deaths. Every day there are more and more. On the positive side I've seen data that suggests we may be plateauing. We're having less new cases reported but new cases are still being reported.
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lpprince Banned for Spam I have made 2,134 posts Right now I'm Offline I joined August 2015 I've received 1,279 likes My gender is Male	Venting thread / what's bothering you? Apr 20, 2020 13:46:34 GMT -6 Ness and darthlopez like this Post by lpprince on Apr 20, 2020 13:46:34 GMT -6 Heart's perfectly good now. This morning I still had a wee bit of the same feeling from yesterday, but after a while it fucked off and its been gone entirely. Fuckin odd, that.
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darthlopez Banned for Spam I have made 1,033 posts Right now I'm Offline I joined September 2015 I've received 644 likes My gender is Male	Venting thread / what's bothering you? Apr 26, 2020 20:40:16 GMT -6 Post by darthlopez on Apr 26, 2020 20:40:16 GMT -6 Having difficulty motivating myself to do the final cage clean (it's not that bad cause she didn't really do anything in there for the week) and dump the last bunch of open food. I know I shood but Its just really weird to think about and what not... It's a weird thing. I finally managed to get the towel for play/care time up off the ground and threw out some of the medicine... but not all. Overall I'm handling it well. Just I'm not feeling able to or good about taking those last steps I guess. Especially since I don't plan on getting a hedgie again anytime soon. Not that I don't want a hedgie (they are my favorite pet) but yeah. Also what if I do decide to get a new one and I have to then go dig all her old stuff out of the garage? idk just kinda making excuses I guess. I don't really look in there much but when I do it kinda makes me sad cause nothing has changed. She's just not there. Haven't turned off the sensors yet either for heat stuff. So my phone keeps buzzing sometimes saying "It's below 72 it's below 71" etc... etc...(I lowered the ambient temperature and took her heat lamp offline since she's gone so when it gets cold its a really sad reminder that she's not there.) Those were the alarm temperatures for when it was too low. I just dismiss it but it's weird. I did unplug her thermostat though I just haven't put it away or anything. On the plus side I've mostly stopped hearing or misidentifying sounds when its not raining as her. So I guess my brain is slowly actually accepting it. but who really knows at this rate. And my bonsai tree kit came. But I feel weird about planting them and using the desk space for that or anything. It's just really weird. Also having a hard time doing other things or enjoying my spare time. I've resorted to just consuming star wars content cause I guess its a safeish place for me. And I'm having some fun wiht that don't get me wrong. But I just am not like "enjoying it" sometimes. Sometimes it's just this is star wars and here I am. Also keep having weird dreams where I'm in a room usually alone and something or someone is drilling a hole into the ceiling from the other side. It's honestly becoming distressing.
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lpprince Banned for Spam I have made 2,134 posts Right now I'm Offline I joined August 2015 I've received 1,279 likes My gender is Male	Venting thread / what's bothering you? Apr 27, 2020 17:39:33 GMT -6 darthlopez likes this Post by lpprince on Apr 27, 2020 17:39:33 GMT -6 Literally five minutes ago I learned that one of my cousins committed suicide by blowing his brains out. In February of last year. I'm thinking, "Why did no one think to tell me this ever?" Reason- Because that was around the same time my grandfather and mother's cancers became a thing and they didn't want to overwhelm me. I remember he and I playing around as Batman and Robin, switching places and running around the apartment in NYC when he and his mom and dad would visit. He grew up to join the Navy, and the PTSD got to him. Now I'm just like, "Fuuuuuck" I wish I would've known how he felt so I could help him the way I've helped so many others, but I'm not gonna waste time thinking about the would've, could've, or should've. I'm just gonna remember him as the little kid who pretended to be a superhero with me; who grew up to actually be one.
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darthlopez Banned for Spam I have made 1,033 posts Right now I'm Offline I joined September 2015 I've received 644 likes My gender is Male	Venting thread / what's bothering you? Apr 27, 2020 18:00:36 GMT -6 Post by darthlopez on Apr 27, 2020 18:00:36 GMT -6 What teh actual fuck, that sucks man :/ I'm sorry that you only found out now that's terrible.
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lpprince Banned for Spam I have made 2,134 posts Right now I'm Offline I joined August 2015 I've received 1,279 likes My gender is Male	Venting thread / what's bothering you? Apr 27, 2020 18:32:03 GMT -6 darthlopez likes this Post by lpprince on Apr 27, 2020 18:32:03 GMT -6 Apr 27, 2020 18:00:36 GMT -6 darthlopez said: What teh actual fuck, that sucks man :/ I'm sorry that you only found out now that's terrible. Its all good. No tears, not gonna mourn. He's off to better places. I gotta focus on helping myself and whoever else I can help along the way.
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darthlopez Banned for Spam I have made 1,033 posts Right now I'm Offline I joined September 2015 I've received 644 likes My gender is Male	Venting thread / what's bothering you? Apr 27, 2020 20:14:51 GMT -6 lpprince likes this Post by darthlopez on Apr 27, 2020 20:14:51 GMT -6 Apr 27, 2020 18:32:03 GMT -6 lpprince said: Apr 27, 2020 18:00:36 GMT -6 darthlopez said: What teh actual fuck, that sucks man :/ I'm sorry that you only found out now that's terrible. Its all good. No tears, not gonna mourn. He's off to better places. I gotta focus on helping myself and whoever else I can help along the way. fair but if you need support we are here
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lpprince Banned for Spam I have made 2,134 posts Right now I'm Offline I joined August 2015 I've received 1,279 likes My gender is Male	Venting thread / what's bothering you? Apr 27, 2020 22:38:03 GMT -6 darthlopez likes this Post by lpprince on Apr 27, 2020 22:38:03 GMT -6 Apr 27, 2020 20:14:51 GMT -6 darthlopez said: Apr 27, 2020 18:32:03 GMT -6 lpprince said: Its all good. No tears, not gonna mourn. He's off to better places. I gotta focus on helping myself and whoever else I can help along the way. fair but if you need support we are here Thanks my dude. Don't worry, I'm good. I just needed to post that little bit earlier because it was right after learning it and I was like Wow, what? Back to the usual now
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darthlopez Banned for Spam I have made 1,033 posts Right now I'm Offline I joined September 2015 I've received 644 likes My gender is Male	Venting thread / what's bothering you? May 6, 2020 1:38:35 GMT -6 via mobile Obadiah likes this Post by darthlopez on May 6, 2020 1:38:35 GMT -6 Hard time sleeping today. Watched a few shows and I don't know if that got me stuck I'm on mode or what. Some weird thoughts about hedgie and my general positive vibes has momentarily broken. Honestly not sure what to think. Feeling down about debt, feeling down about Oklahoma, feeling down about pharmacy, feeling down about hedgie, feeling down on life. Things are quiet and I need to sleep but there's only the sound of the computer modem and what feels like a perpetual solitude.
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Reznore Forum Regular I have made 183 posts Right now I'm Offline I joined January 2018 I've received 198 likes My gender is Female	Venting thread / what's bothering you? May 9, 2020 2:57:44 GMT -6 Obadiah, darthlopez, and 1 more like this Post by Reznore on May 9, 2020 2:57:44 GMT -6 May 8, 2020 13:40:31 GMT -6 Sparrow44 said: Some fucking "lockdown" this has been. Stupidity knows no bounds. A couple of weeks ago, a guy chased me around...Like WTH. I was trying to keep my distance but dude was walking like the terminator right behind my ass and he followed me when there were plenty of space to just leave me alone. But nah. At one point I managed to cut loose, and I was glaring at him. And he looked so pleased with himself. Couldn't believe it. And it was not a stupid teenager, cause a teenager being that stupid I could understand. No a 30+ years old dude. I was livid. And my step father was walking the dog, and apparently the dog pooped in the middle of the road. A guy on a SUV stopped, and went on a rant how he was going to get off his car and beat the shit out of my step father. Can't keep people on lockdown forever, plenty of people are still nice and everything but some people are getting unhinged. And in the realm of wonderful French politics, the masks we were told by the government were "useless" and we were too dumb to use ( yeah...) will be mandatory on shops and publics transport starting Monday. Thing is there's still not enough masks, the government voted against free masks this morning, and some shops who have them are overpricing them now...
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