Ness
Rah's Piggy
Duchess of Liamsburgh
'A poem is never finished, it just stops moving'
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Post by Ness on Apr 17, 2020 17:32:00 GMT -6
Got put on some whack drugs as part of transitioning. Great news long term but they are royally fucking with me. And they are supposed to be doing this at least. An unfortunate guaranteed side effect for about a month or so. But I still hate it. Irritable at best most days, moments of really bad depression, migraines, heart palpitations, super high blood pressure etc. Today I have been inexplicably furious all day. All day! At nothing. I don't have the energy. Literally! I thought it would be a good time to be having this, stuck inside, where I can keep contact minimal but I question if that is actually beneficial and more towards making me go insane I also feel hungry aaaaaaaall the time and this is easily the worst bit. It doesn't stop. I've put on like a stone and a half in like a week. Which is actually kind of a good thing because I don't put on weight, like ever, I've been intermittently trying to for years now as I am somewhat under where I should be. But that's a lot to put on at once. This is why I hate drugs. They're supposed to help with one thing but they give you like 100 shit things along with it. Wish you could just press a button and then boom, done. All better. Well with this one at least its all expected and will wear off given time, far shorter than the length that I'll actually need the meds. Just need to get through it. The it forcing depression thing is particularly weird though. They recomned you go on antidepressants or something similar when you start these but I'm on enough meds as is and didn't want the cocktail. I'm very aware its not coming from anything real from me and its all very surreal as a result. Just being forced to feel miserable, briefly. The few times that's happened I just go and nap it of. So yeah there's means around it. Its not so bad!
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