What did I learn?

I think I learnt a lot about how to be a good person.


I once believed that I was a decent chap. That was until I said something that really offended someone. I made a bad joke. I didn't intend to offend, but they took it personally. To this day, I swear that person is still upset with me. That said I did say a lot of other nasty things that were never really intended to cause offence.

After a lot of soul searching and asking people for advice, I learnt things about myself that I would never have otherwise learnt. It was a real eye opener. I learnt about effective communication, what to say and what not to say and how to comport myself. I learnt about putting others first and caring for other individuals.

I would describe myself as "lawful neutral" trying to be "lawful good". Every day is an opportunity for self improvement.

For most people being good comes naturally. For me, it takes time.

I know it's been nearly 3 years, but there hasn't been a single day where I haven't regretted what I said. I still feel terrible about it.

There is also the distinct possibility of growing to resent your passion, which becomes a subtle version of self-loathing, which then feeds your bitterness about said passion...

*backs out of thread*

I write papers for the FDA, at least until the next restructure.

I think in the end, all jobs sucks. I should just become a stripper.

I was going to be a Historian.

Then someone close to me died and I inherited enough money that I don't have to work.

So I don't.

No, its other purpose is to rule and gain respect when people don't like you.

You lucky bastard!

So read some philosophy of history. They're quite deep and interesting. Books from G.W.F. Hegel, O. Spengler, A.J. Toynbee, I.M. Diakonoff and others.

I'm a Captain in the United States Army, branched to Military Intelligence (Officers don't have an MOS per se, but I am technically designated as 35A Open/All-Source Intelligence Officer: I conduct HUMINT collection management, surveillance and reconnaissance operations and imagery, and provide Intelligence advice to Division-level commanders and above. And yes, I can say what I do, without telling you what I am or have been doing. I love my job (mostly the perks; if I could get paid to do the really high-speed stuff on a regular basis, I'd do that), though I can't say that I really love the Army all that much anymore. I'm also preparing to leave the Army in April. As for what I'm doing afterwards... well, I'm going to live. I'm going to do all the stuff I never could do before as a youth. I'm a kid, and I know it.

I'll be the first to say it. I'm a youthful man. I want to be. I don't want to be mister mature and squared away right now. I'm 25 years old, I have a 2 Bachelor's degrees and a Master's degree, and nearly 9 years of service in the Army. I want to enjoy my youngness. I don't know what I want to do with my life. And honestly, I'm alright with that. I like having a liberating feeling of not having a plan. I know I want to move and travel around the world. I know I want to emmigrate to Australia and fall for an Aussie lady if possible. I want to climb mountains and dive in the ocean, jump out of planes again, hike, bike, and camp through jungles and forests, surf exotic beaches. I want to ford big rivers and cross icy plains in Alaska. I want to chase tornadoes, study volcanoes, and be an astronomer. I want to be able to move around with a pack on my back and just be free to immerse in the culture, while doing my own thing in the cities and frontiers of civilization. I'm even interested in returning to government work, working as an advocate for the environment, possibly the Peace Corps or some environmental group that gets me moving, or going back into the Intelligence Community. Then there's courier services.

I don't want to settle at all in life. I've earned better and done too much for that. I don't want to be content. I want to be constantly yearning for more and more. I can never be satisfied if I'm not being challenged or presented with something new, strange, or unusual.

I want to end up in Australia, and I'd love Australians here to be friends with and chat with and build up a base so that I have some people, any people, to help me with the transition process. This is an open call for thoughts on that matter. Hell, I'm a licensed diver; I could totally be up for living up off the Reef and being an environmentalist diver working for some group who studies the Reef and pollution on it.

But in short, I don't really have a dream job. My dream is to be doing it all.

If you go through with this, let me know where you work. I would like to throw 5 singles at you and then expect you to put out.