i might as well create this thread of my own, to be honest as always. no secrets. i just feel that this is honest as good as it gets.
i'm gonna lay out these questions that i already answered long time ago. even brutal truth is honest, no matter what question is.

below are the questions and my questioners's names are edited for their safetry.

Amethyst's question: when your meltdown happened, did you lash out at some forums or just one forum?
Answer: yes, Amethyst.. just one. during my meltdown, i felt very angry, mad, filled with depression, sadness. just mixed feelings. so i did lash out at Cyonan's forum (cBSN) at that time as guest. afterwards, i felt very bad about it. in fact, i made a mistake of letting my emotions become mixed with real life and online life which was supposed to be separated. and.. it just happened.
like usual, i didn't really apologize, just hide from my problems, feelings. so i left. day later, i learned that i was ip-banned few weeks later, i was not ip-banned. i didn't come on his forum again just to cause a trouble.

i signed up on it to check out the forum and check in time to time. i just really don't want to post very much on cBSN because here are few people i know who hates me and dislike me. particularly one of moderators who is from TSG. just made one post then left. day later again, i'm ip-banned again for no reason. i don't blame them for that. everybody has their bad days and good days. after all, we are human. beside that, i liked his forum themes. (important question)
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James's question: what was uBSN's purpose? i mean, aside from your work on uBSN. like, you simply work hard on this forum since it was created.
Answer: well, James allow me to explain what uBSN was originally intended.. uBSN was originally created to become Bioware Community's replacement home once Bioware Forum (BSN Prime) ends. it would have every board and threads of same subject. including familar users.
i was hoping to expand the Community forum from Bioware into multimedia gaming forum. not just Bioware, but other game brands. i originally was gonna call it the "Gaming Social Network (GSN) sadly, that concept was thrown out in favor of uBSN. just wanted to keep it bioware related. so i stayed with uBSN. this explains the process of how uBSN came to be.
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Ashley's question: will you make Gaming Social Network in future? i noticed that you have impressive number of forums you made and are quite successful. do they do fine without you or they just call you in to help?
Answer: Ashley, GSN is just one thing i still have in my mind. but i am focusing my efforts on uBSN. i won't rest until the entire forum has all subjects from Bioware Forum. my impressive number of forums i have doesn't mean a thing. Community forum such as uBSN are more important than my stats.
i work on community forums of mine, making designing them for 10 hours a day, 2 hours a night all while i work on different forums separately. but lately, i have been busy with only forum. that is uBSN. i try to keep the forum updated much as i can. i respond to posts, requests little quicker than some people who have not learned how to design a forum. believe me when i say this. Proboards forum designing takes skill to get everything just right.

only trial and error that you will learn to improve. that's what i did. i learned through trial and error. it has made me into good forum designer. i love proboards because it offers me a chance to design a forum of my own, forum of people, etc etc.
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Dew's question: back in early beginnings of BSN Prime, did you have a thing for Bunz, mybudgee?
Answer: um.. it was long time ago. but yes.. i did. i had fallen for Bunz and mybudgee. i mean, it was just.. fling. can we move on? thanks.
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Dewey's question: what about that time you got abused and trolled by members on old BSN that Ninja Stan banhammered everyone in multiplayer section? hilarious.
Answer: you don't have to remind me of that. it was bad, bad memory. it's not my fault that this happened to them. i was innocent caught in all this, despite it, i was safe. but yeah, i felt sorry for those guys who got banned. i mean, Stan did warn them or that would happen. it happened. end of story.
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Deezuts's question: do you have love/hate relationship with Dobbysaurus/Dobby?
Answer: Deez.. i'm not going to ask why your name is. anyway, i do, i just love/hate Dobby, she can be such insane lady at times.. nice one minute, the next, she is flipping crazy as heck. so.. she is exactly what she is.. that's Dobby being Dobby.
i respect and admire her for all that things she has thrown at me. i'm not fazed by it, yet TSG members are cringy as heck, they don't like that kind of thing.. even if i don't like Dobby relationship. she's one i have respect for, despite how crazy TSG really is. we first met on old BSN and of course, it led to first fight on old BSN haha.
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Jackie's question: CrutchCricket doesn't seem to like you. does he has thing for you?
Answer: err wha? i mean, what. he doesn't. he's just guy that doesn't like anyone. including everybody at any forum he goes to. he's just that senile person. and NO, he does not have a thing for me. i'd be majorly grossed out if he did. so, NO THANK YOU.